My normal life...sans job.

This month was focused on putting my life back together. I looked for jobs for two weeks, realized that all I can do right now is make the book awesome and get ready for October. I talked to some amazing people in Advertising, and I hope to keep up with them. I made an amazing connection with a headhunter in Chicago. I got rid of half of our house at a massive yard sale, the result being that we are $144 richer, but we still have a lot of things to get through. I also took some much needed time off and I rejoined the human race. (I didn't realized how much I missed my friends and what I missed out on for two years).

The wedding is also underway. We still have a few more details to go...and a lot more to pay for - but it's going. I'm not yet a bridezilla :).

I also know that I can truthfully now say that I don't mind joining the adworld a little later. Next month, I'll be camping for three weeks straight, then moving out of our house. I will miss Richmond, but I'm ready to my next chapter.

I don't miss the Brandcenter yet. I think back on it and shutter and what we all went through. But I miss everyone.

I don't have a job.

And I'm watching everyone I know getting jobs. I feel that it's because I've told everyone that I just can't go anywhere until October. But deep down there is that "do I suck?," feeling.

Logan is making sushi at 1am. Mike Myers is on Conan, the garbage smells bad.

Tuesday.

I'm considering going to the Brandcenter to help Elisabeth put Sixty books in envelopes.

And I'm working on a website.

And watching TV.

...yep.

thoughts of the evening

This week I acted like a 12 year old at the pool. Logan won a free membership to a swanky gym...one with a kid slide that's awesome. We played on that until the little kids came. Then we exercised and danced the day away. I worked a little on Logan's site. I yardsailed this morning. I spent too much at the mall on Tuesday. And the world lost an awesome light on Wednesday.

This past Wednesday at 8am, an amazing person who worked at Mckinney was killed by a driver who swerved onto the biker's side to miss hitting a dear. (I wonder if I would have done the same thing if it were me). I only had the honor of knowing him for 10 weeks - my internship - but I learned so much from him. A little about how to do cool things on the internet, but also that there's more to life than computers, work and the daily 9-5.

Rock on Clive. Rock on.

I went to Mckinney on Friday to pay my respects and to get my book ripped apart by my Mckinney mentors. I agreed with pretty much everything they said. One thing I had a hard time agreeing with - and I'd love to throw this subject out for debate - is that I shouldn't be telling recruiters and headhunters that I'm getting married. That I should be telling you - John Q hiring person - that I would change my life around for your job and that you don't care about me, you just want to see my work.

ya...here's the truth. I love advertising. I have companies that I dream of working for, but I won't cancel my wedding for any of them. I won't sacrifice my marriage, my vacations, etc...just so I can sell a product.

And I'm nice. I like to talk and have conversations. I like to tell you about me, and I want to know things about you. Become friends even. Not fake ones that are only made for the purpose of getting a job.

Now, don't misjudge. I'm not lazy. And I'll work weekends and do what it takes to get the job done. Want tangible proof - I've won awards. More importantly, I've failed and have learned from my mistakes. But I will never sell my soul to the ad world. And if you don't like that - don't hire me. I know there are agencies out there who feel that same way I do.


final thought :) Today I got to veg out with close friends (and newer ones) We played at the pool and just watched TV. It felt so good to be normal again.

Hi Slate.
Hi Lesley.

The aftermath

It's been about a week since the recruiter session and I'm not entirely sure what to do with myself. I've been non stop working for two years and I find myself in a state of...boredom? I think this is what it's called. I won't keep the boredom for long. For there's a wedding to plan! A vacation in the future and...ugg...packing.

By the way...Massive Yard Sale - June 28th. Come.

What's in my future, who knows. I hope a very nice job where we can work all day and Guitar Hero/Rock Band at night (hint, hint, wink wink!!)

This biggest lesson

This past month has been a mental whirlwind for me. A whirlwind that I created when I was 12 and it's finally showing its ugly face.

So, here's my big secret, I'm a bit crazy. The Brandcenter pretty much has owned my behind for two years and this last week, my mind decided to shut off and I became more a basketcase, then I have ever been. Having a somewhat massive assignment didn't help the situation and that group saw a side of me and I despise showing, but I'm glad I did. I let this school pretty much take over my life, thinking that advertising was the most important thing. This made me shy away from people (and to find excuses as to why I shouldn't like them) and to enjoy not only the things in my life, but the Brandcenter itself.

I'm now taking the steps to fix this problem - a problem that I've since high school - In the next coming weeks, there will be a new and improved Candice biking around Richmond.

One thing that I did get out of all of this though: The Brandcenter is a collective of amazing people. People that I thought would never talk to me, that we had nothing in common, let me just cry and complain about the same thing for seven days. I found out that we are all a family - an insane one, but a family and that we all want to see each other make it. There are a few people especially that I will be in dept to for their help. I don't think they know it, but they are the reason why I stay at the Brandcenter. Thanks guys.

I'm crazy. That's probably one of the reasons why I fit in this career.

And I saw Chicago. Eh, not bad.
Boston, much more awesome :)

Just realized

A lot of my postings are about Advertising and my reflections on it - mainly negative.

1. I really do like the Brandcenter. Or...no...I like the Adcenter. The Brandcenter is too knew. But I'm not very fond of the feel of it. I'm sure it'll be better once the shine disappears and becomes a real school. But this whole experience has been cool and I'll miss when it's gone, I feel.

2. And now to say something compleatly random - CHEESE! RUN! YAY!

Seriously, I'll write a good post soon.